Worry Wolf

This is Wolf. Wolf has been causing me great stress the last month or so. Wolf is part of the same litter as Moose & Grizzly and two others. Did I tell ya the story how I got the litter of kittens? Eh.. It would take too long now. Lets just say I wound up with a pregnant cat, in the middle of winter, and I kept the litter. Come to find out, the cat belonged to someone. So... she went home, sans kittens.
She was a mean cat, so she rarely let me near the kittens. Sooo, these cats are a bit skittish.

Moose and Grizzly aren't as skittish and usually sleep with me. Wolf slept with me also, but he had his moments. About a month ago, he found a hole in the cat pen and got out. I have not been able to catch him since. I've felt bad for him because he's always been indoors and now he's dealing with outdoors 24 hours a day, and it's freezing. BUT... the goofy cat won't let me catch him. Ugh. (Remember the Spook story?)

So anyway... I've been setting up the cat trap (humane, of course) for him during the day, trying to catch him.
Of course you know how this works out. I've caught EVERY one of my other cats. He avoids it. How is that? Do you know how frustrating that is? If you don't know the Spook story, It went the same way. I watched Spook enter and exit the trap many times never setting it off. I seriously thought I was going to cry. But that's another post.
He will come close, and even talk to me.... but no way is he within arms reach.

I can't leave the trap at night for a couple of reasons. I don't want to catch a raccoon, and I can't leave the cat just sitting there overnight.

What's extremely frustrating to me though is the fact that this cat won't come to me. I've raised it since a kitten. I've fed and provided a pretty awesome home, and, he runs from me! Ugh.
So... the cat lives outside now. Isn't that crazy? It drives me nuts.

A cat that won't come to me. Can you imagine?

Ok...rant over.